McDonald's gets your order wrong repeatedly, but you keep returning. however, on we things goes wrong at Church

how does the Lord speak to me?

Lord does not speak in temporal terms, rather spiritual which is eternal. 

What are my absolute truths??

faith vs trust

Trust is faith excersized under pressure. In trust excersize of falling, Trust says I know they will catch me. Faith says I know they are there.  Trust is often harder than faith. 

Where is the Lord expecting me to trust more fully?